Archive for March, 2007

Tribute to Tito Goody and Tito Jun

Tuesday, March 20th, 2007

Death is not extinguishing the light; it is putting out the lamp because dawn has come.

Death, it is something that most of us don’t think about often…it’s even not talked about as well…but death is a fact of life, some may call it "a candle that will soon burn down" or that it is essential in the continuity of life itself.

Last Febuary 9, i lost someone very dear to me, a person i have known all my life and loved very much. My tito goody, from my mom’s side, got sick and soon after died of complications. it was very hard for our family to accept what happened. He was just holding Sofia, my baby, during christmas while having a foolish fight with another tito from my dad’s side, they were even saying "bakit?apo mo lang ba to?apo ko din to noh!" Now that he is gone, i remember all the memories i have shared with him, all the laughs and the care that he has shown me. That he was in every part of my life, from childhood, to growing up and having a child of my own, he was there for me.

Moving on…On March 19…we found out that my Tito Jun from my dad’s side was killed by Hit and Run in Pangasinan. We didn’t know that he was killed last saturday while he was out visiting some friends. And if you would ask…he was the same tito having the foolish banter over Sofia with tito goody. He was the one who said that Sofia was his grandchild too… I wasn’t really that close with my tito jun, he had lived in the province and i rarely see him, in fact last christmas was the first and last time i’ve seen him in a very long time, and he was so happy looking at Sofia…

These two people, though very different from each other, has been a very big part of my life growing up. When i had Sofia, tito goody would always look at her while she is sleeping and even carry her outside to my our other relatives and show her to them while they’re drinking liqour. While tito jun would look at her and look at me and tell me that we look alike, to which i would reply, "shempre anak ko yan e." The awe in both their eyes that says, we have another part of the family born…another legacy.

Looking back, though i wish that they’re still here to witness more of my life and my child’s, i really am glad that they have both been a part of Sofia’s life…even if Sofia wouldn’t remember them, i will always remind her of the love i saw in both of my titos’ eyes when they saw her.

To my very dear Tito Goody and Tito Jun… i will miss the laughters, the love and the care we’ve shared. I am saddened that I won’t see you in a long time…but i know that you’re both in GOOD HANDS and in Heaven when you see each other…you’ll laugh and say: "Nom-nom na!"

A mother’s prayer

Tuesday, March 13th, 2007

This is my song for sofia…ang nice…the first time i heard it, tears uncontrollably and unexplainably fell from my eyes…

A mother’s prayer -Celine Dion

I pray you’ll be my eyes
And watch her where she goes
And help her to be wise
Help me to let go

Every mother’s prayer
Every child knows
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she’ll be safe

I pray she finds your light
And holds it in her heart
As darkness falls each night
Remind her where you are

Every mother’s prayer
Every child knows
Need to find a place
Guide her to a place
Give her faith so she’ll be safe

Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she’ll be safe